theatrical_muse: What someone is thinking

I think if I could know? I’d like to know what Jess still feels for me.

The reason is simple...I still love her. I never stopped.

There’s been others for both of us, I know that...but love comes and goes in this life. Some just stick with us longer than others. Jess...she’s the mother of my son, wherever he might be. Kevin...I loved him, *love* him more than words can say, but not just because he was my son.

I love him because he was the both of us. Jess and I had something really special once, something so big and so precious that it created a human life. Once upon a time, we loved each other so completely that Kevin was the result, and I haven’t forgotten that. After we lost him...she was all I had left of him, of us, and I didn’t want to give her up.

That’s the thing with loss, though...once you lose, you keep on losing in order to preserve what you have left.

So I let Jess go...and I saw her drift away from me. I can’t deny the same happened to me...but again, I lost the woman that meant something to me.

Loss is all I seem to know anymore...but for once? I’d like to know if I have anything left to gain.